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Remember this post I wrote way back in September? Yeah that one. I have been asked several times for an update and I have fully intended on doing so but haven’t felt like it deserved to be written because I haven’t been doing so good in the weight loss department the pst coupe of months. What can I say…losing weight is HARD!!!
Since that post was written so long ago let me refresh your memory a little bit. Last April I moved from day shift to night shift at my hospital job (I’m a Registered Respiratory Therapist in a busy NICU) and I was terrified of gaining weight the way I did the first time I worked night shift. So I went to my doctor and participated in a doctor approved weight loss program which included taking Adipex to suppress my appetite and it worked!! I lost right at 30 pounds from April to October and then the holidays set in and I skipped going to my doctor appointments because at that point I thought I could do it myself.
I actually held my own through Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Year’s and didn’t gain any weight. I was proud of myself for not gaining any weight over the holidays and even made a New Year’s Resolution to lose another 30 pounds this year (I still have a good 60 pounds I want to lose overall to hit my “goal weight”) which I thought was a modest goal at the time. I had lost 30 pounds the previous year and started back in April so I figured that by starting in January I could lose even more.
Well without the Adipex I was thinking about food ALL THE TIME and while I was pretty good about not giving in to my cravings as soon as I started to restrict what I was eating I craved ALL THE THINGS and I gave in. My thoughts were that my birthday was in February and I deserved all of those treats and could use start my magical eating right plan after my birthday. Well my birthday came and went and nothing changed. I was still eating out all the time, eating junk food and not working out. You may recall my reluctance to rejoin my gym and I finally did at the end of January but didn’t actually start going until mid-February. Ugh.
So anyway, here we are mid-March and I have an appointment to see my doctor this week together back on the Adipex. I hate to admit it but weight loss is HARD and especially when you can’t stop thinking about food all day ‘err day and have zero energy to workout because you work long hours. Since the New Year I have gained 7 pounds back of the 30 I lost so my new goal for 2018 is to lose 37 pounds. The 30 I originally wanted to lose and the 7 I gained back because I had zero will power at the beginning of the year.
This sort of feels like starting over. I am angry at myself but at the same time I’m just glad I didn’t let myself get too out of control before I decided to do something about it. I have done this before and I can do it again and I will do it so much better this time!!
I plan on eating low-carb, that just works best for me since I work nights and am awake at weird hours. I plan on getting my cardio in outside with my Sophie girl, we like to walk at the park and two laps takes about 45-50 minutes and is a good 3 mile circuit. I plan on working my legs, arms and core at the gym. I plan on getting as much sleep as I can and sticking to the same sleep schedule on my days on and off work, that just helps me feel more normal endnote so dang tired all the time.
I also plan on sharing as much of this journey with you as I can and feel comfortable with. And maybe, once I hot my next 30 pounds I will tell you my starting weight. I have had several people ask and I’m not comfortable sharing that right now! Sorry guys!!
If you have weight to lose then I truly wish you the best luck!!! We can do this, on our own terms and in our own time.
Losing weight is HARD!! Am I right??
robin rue says
I’ve lost a lot of weight on my own. I have a BIG appetite, but I found that snacking all day long took care of that. Maybe you could try that so you don’t have to take medication?
I do eat small meals throughout the day instead of large meals and I do snack on the reg but I literally think about food ALL DAY LONG and I’m Danh HANGRY all day and that makes it super hard to not give on to those thoughts and cravings. Adipiex is the only thing that suppresses my appetite enough that I don’t give in to the cravings. Trust me, I have literally tried everything I can think of before getting back on it.
Losing weight is hard. Don’t give up you can do this. Remember it is a lifestyle change.
Amber Myers says
I agree, it is hard. Especially when you love food like I do. I refuse to ever diet. I just jog daily and hope for the best. I only panic when I no longer fit into my pants. Luckily this hasn’t happened for a long while! I just strive to get 10,000 steps a day.
Oh girl I LOVE FOOD so much!! Too much…now I just need to move my booty and work some of it off! HA!
Mary Edwards says
Losing weight IS hard. And the older I get, the harder it is. Ugh. I will be following your journey – good luck!
Meg Tra says
CHEERING YOU ON!!! I can SO relate to this post! Maybe youd be interested in an accountability partner? We don’t have to share specifics, I just know I would be more successful personally if I knew I was letting someone else other than myself down when I ate poorly or didn’t exercise. :)
Of course I’m interested! I need an accountability partner in the worst way!! Email me!
MEG TRA says
I definitely will!!
Joely Smith says
Well I think you look fab but it isn’t all about looks is it? Our health is what matters. Don’t beat yourself up! You are getting back on track and THAT is what matters!!!
You GOT THIS!!
Thanks!! I feel so much better already but I know I can do better!!
Good for you for taking charge of your health so you an be your best self ever! You’re looking great!!
You are right, that losing weight is hard for most of us. I think the real key is honestly finding what works right for you. I think it’s great that you are sharing about it. I can really relate.
Thanks, I think sharing is the scary part!! Putting yourself out there for others to see and judge!!
Jennifer | Busy Being Jennifer says
Ohhhhhh girl, you are preaching to the choir! Losing weight is so hard but we can definitely do it and I can’t wait to see your updates!
I love the last line of your article because it is so true with any way you are trying to change your life. On our own terms and in our own time.
Sara Welch says
Of course it is hard! But that is half of the fun; watching it go away is so much more rewarding!
Carol Cassara says
It does feel like a huge challenge and one that never seems to end. Last year I started this whole 30 diet and there were days when I simply wanted to throw all my progress away because it felt like it wasn’t worth it all. But you have to keep pushing for it, if you really want to get back on track and be healthy and fit. I wish you the best, I’m sure you can do it, just keep going at it even on days where you feel lazy.
Shoshana Sue says
Losing weight is full of ups and downs and there are a lot of untold struggles between all the before and after photos we always see. Don’t be discouraged to a point of giving up completely, that is how the weight loss game works. As a fitness blogger, who has struggled with weight, I know what I am on about. Start afresh and keep going until you hit the goal. One other thing, the low carb is just going to mess your energy levels up. Eat balanced miss, but just make sure you are watching and tracking the calories. All the best Ricci!
Thanks for the encouragement!! I do eat some carbs, just not as many as I want. So not true low-carb?? LOL!!
Anosa Malanga says
Losing weight is indeed so hard to do. It entails a lot of determination an hardwork and of course discipline. This year, I am not aiming to lose weight but living a healthy lifestyle instead.
I hate that you are so right – the weight thing *is* hard. But it is a good fight, and maybe when we’ve been in the fight long enough it stops feeling like a fight?
Keep going, you’ve got this!
I definitely agree, losing weight is hard but it is so easy to gain. When I was in my 30s, losing weight is easier than losing weight now that I am in my mid-40s. Good luck to you.
Jenn @ EngineerMommy says
Losing weight is definitely hard but it sounds like you are committed to the journey. Your dog is so cute and I bet she makes a great workout buddy! :)
She does!! She makes me get outside and walk every day!!
Martine - MeUnfinished says
You are exposing yourself to so much by sharing your journey. That takes a lot of courage and I commend you for it! Losing weight is indeed a journey and very individual. I can understand as I went through it and fight very hard every day to maintain. Do what works for you and also remember to always be kind to yourself: that helps tremendously in getting back up when/if you stray (wink!)
I love your honesty! Losing weight is hard. It’s something I’ve struggled with since I got pregnant 13 years ago. Keep going girl! We can do it!
Lisa Marie Heath says
Losing weight is no picnic. When I was younger – I was skinny and I ate EVERYTHING. After I had my son, I found out I had PCOS and then losing the baby weight was a struggle. We did Keto and it worked but staying on it was a chore. We’re still chugging along, but it’s not easy at all