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A couple of years ago…ok, more like four years ago, I stared a series on this blog called 30 Questions. It was a random list of 30 Questions that you answered on your blog, some of them are just fun, some are serious, and some are just random. I love doing posts like this because it’s a really great way to get to know someone. Plus these days everyone thinks a blog post must be for a purpose- to sell you something, to teach a new recipe, to show you how to do something but my favorite posts to both read and write are the personal ones. So today, I am getting back on the 30 Question train and I am going to answer questions six. Because in true Ricci fashion even though I started this series four years ago I never finished it. Oops!!
You can check out the first five questions here.
Question 6: What is the hardest thing you have ever experienced?
Hands down the hardest thing I have ever experienced in my 33 years is my Mom dying. I don’t talk about that much on this blog but I think about her everyday.
When I was a freshman in high school my Mom was diagnosed with colon cancer. I don’t remember the specifics but I don’t remember being scared. My Mom was 39 years old and in my mind she was invincible. I remember her having multiple surgeries and taking her to get her radiation and chemo treatments and my Neenee (grandmother) moving in with us so she could take care of both my Mom and all of use kids.
I remember being a senior in high school and going to see my Mom the morning after my senior prom. She was in the hospital and had been for months. She surprised us all when she got up and walked around the hall.
I remember her getting out of the hospital and coming home right before my high school graduation. I went to a tiny high school and so everyone knew about my Mom. They reserved my family front row seats at graduation so she would be able to see. She didn’t want anyone to feel sorry for her so she refused to use a wheelchair and instead walked down the aisle on my Dad’s arm.
I remember her never really looking sick until right before she passed. She had really thick hair so even when she lost some of it she still had a full head. She never left the house without her makeup. She lost weight but never looked tiny and frail like some people do.
She passed away the summer after I graduated from high school and right before I went to college. Losing her and not being able to talk to her every day has been that hardest thing. I was truly a Mama’s girl and just thinking that she will never meet the man I will marry, or help me pick out a wedding dress, or hold my babies. She never saw me graduate from college, get my first big girl job, purchase my first house, and see the success I have had with this blog. And I have no idea why but I always want to cry when people tell me “your mom would be so proud of you!”
If you have ever lost parent then you know what I am talking about. If you haven’t then treasure each moment you have with them. Even if you disagree with them, they make you mad, or they tell you things you don’t want to hear. That means they love you and only want the best for you. At least that’s what my Mom always told me.
What is the hardest thing you have eve experienced??